Missed my standup while waiting for it

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This happens to me fairly often.

My first thought was...god damn this podcast distracted me! I felt angry and I had the thought of putting the blame on the pod cast or my friend who shared it with me. Then I felt guilty. I had the thought, what a terrible friend I'd be. But I still had the feelings of anger burning in me.

It's the calendar app, I thought. It's terribly designed. WHY do peopel use this?? I began to feel heat in my face and I started tinkering in the preferences. I fantasized about yelling to my teammates that if they were going to make me use this application I could not be held accountable for responding due to it's poor design.

I also thought about what the heck I should say to my teammates. My first thoguht was to apologize and explain myself. But I also thought jumpign in with an apology may not be the best way to start.

I heard myself and though, these thoughts are probably not reasonable and maybe it's good to test the neutralizing exercise with it.

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