channeling my inner noob
I had a chat w/ a friend last night who is one of the most optimistic and positive people I know. She reminds me so much of young me. Everything is blossoming for her and there's potential everywhere. I think I'm passed that point somehow. I think I'm hitting a point of feeling senior, feeling like you've seen it all, and feeling like there's no more magic.
I've seen the patterns over and over and I am not optimistic about change, nor do I want the responsibility to shoulder that burden.
But after our chat yesterday it was like getting touch with my self and cultivating that space to dream again with someoen who is a big dreamer, but also one who can put actions to her dreams. I thought that was kind of wonderful. I think I never really pursued what I wanted, I just see the gaps between the dream and the reality I know, but I wouldn't say I've ever given my dreams a true true shot. I haven't recklessly pursued jobs with all my heart and gotten burned or burnt out.
Well, so i guess two thoughts I'm having.
1) indeed we are more senior now. this is probably a normal feeling. But i think it's also pretty cool to acknowledge we have experience and some confidence now in who we are and what we've done. There isn't the noobie glow of optimism.
2) it might be time to revisit my nooby inner self and explore some of what she wants and put some meat to those bones of a dream. This jaded mind maybe just needs to dream a little to feel inspired again. If i'm going to be jaded, I may as well be jaded about the things I've always said I wanted to do right?
I've seen the patterns over and over and I am not optimistic about change, nor do I want the responsibility to shoulder that burden.
But after our chat yesterday it was like getting touch with my self and cultivating that space to dream again with someoen who is a big dreamer, but also one who can put actions to her dreams. I thought that was kind of wonderful. I think I never really pursued what I wanted, I just see the gaps between the dream and the reality I know, but I wouldn't say I've ever given my dreams a true true shot. I haven't recklessly pursued jobs with all my heart and gotten burned or burnt out.
Well, so i guess two thoughts I'm having.
1) indeed we are more senior now. this is probably a normal feeling. But i think it's also pretty cool to acknowledge we have experience and some confidence now in who we are and what we've done. There isn't the noobie glow of optimism.
2) it might be time to revisit my nooby inner self and explore some of what she wants and put some meat to those bones of a dream. This jaded mind maybe just needs to dream a little to feel inspired again. If i'm going to be jaded, I may as well be jaded about the things I've always said I wanted to do right?
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